It is very difficult when you encounter your first serious health problem during your teenage years or early twenties – for which in 90% of cases doctors do not know the cause, but instead attribute it to genes or poor diet.
When someone in your twenties blames you for having a problem with insulin, irregular and painful menstruation, acne, and the like because of your poor diet, which in most cases is not the case, your feeling of dissatisfaction constantly increases.
I was fifteen years old when I first encountered the term polycystic ovaries. At that moment I was a professional athlete, as much as my age allowed, I was active in all aspects of my life and quite happy. I was looking forward to going out with friends, training, but also treating myself with sweets, junk food and complete relaxation regarding nutrition. There was no burden on whether one chocolate cube would bother me more or whether I needed to count the calories in relation to the calories I was consuming. One day, at the request of my parents, who saw that my menstrual cycles were always late and very painful, I went to see an endocrinologist and a gynecologist. The way they told me that I had polycystic ovaries that would follow me for the rest of my life, that my insulin was spiking and that it was all MY fault, I will never forget.
A young person should never be told such a thing, because every new pimple will hurt her more than the last one, because every candy will hurt and arouse insecurity and guilt, and most importantly, the most beautiful and carefree years of life will be turned into endless agony.
You cannot change polycystic ovaries, nor did you choose them. The only thing you can do is relieve the symptoms. It’s the same with insulin resistance and all those “diseases” for which we are to blame, because we were naughty and less obedient than boys, so we were punished with scars on our faces and insecurity due to a bigger stomach.
All my life I tried to change my appearance. Fat deposits on my stomach bothered me even if it was a minimal tummy that no one but me noticed. I went from diet to diet, and each new one was more rigorous than the last. The yo-yo effect has become my best friend. I was able to lose 15 kg in January, and already at the beginning of March I was up to plus 20 kg. The pressures and non-acceptance of the environment made it even more difficult for me. I have never felt comfortable in a swim
suit. The laxity caused by polycystic ovaries increased with age, so summer days became my worst enemy. What if I can’t get something off with my daily full body shave? What if, in addition to the extra kilos, someone notices and tells others that I am also hairy? Hard words, and even harder for a girl growing up. No one ever helped me, no one advised me until I did it myself.
I accepted myself.
I accepted all my irregularities and problems and decided to face them, first of all to be healthy. I replaced the diet with a balanced healthy diet, full of greens, fruits and vegetables. I learned to cook, and I started making my favorite sweets in a healthier, and later I will understand, tastier way. Regular workouts without any need to overdo it have helped my body continue to work and fight to be as healthy as ever.
10 years after the first announcement that I would be fighting polycystic ovaries and insulin resistance for the rest of my life, I am still fighting, but in a completely different and healthier way.
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Veoma je teško kada se tokom tinejdžerskih godina ili u ranim dvadesetim susretnete sa prvim ozbiljnijim zdravstveim problemom- za koji u 90% slučajeva doktori ne znaju uzrok, već prepišu genima ili lošoj ishrani.
Kada Vas neko u vašim dvadesetim okrivi kako zbog vaše loše ishrane, koja u većini slučajeva to i nije, imate problem sa insulinom, neredovnim i bolnim mentruacijama, aknama i sličnom, kod Vas se osećaj nezadovoljnstva konstaktno povećava.
Imala sam petnaest godina kada sam se prvi put susrela sa terminom policističnih jajnika. U tom momentu bila sam profesionalni sportista, koliko su moje godine tada dozvoljavale, bila sam aktivna u svim aspektima svog života i prilično srećna. Radovala sam se izlasku sa drugarima, treninzima, ali i čašćavanju sebe slatkišima, nezdravom hranom i potpunom opuštencijom u vezi ishrane. Nije bilo nikakvog opterećenja da li će mi jedna kockica čokolade više zasmetati ili da li je potrebno da brojim unos kalorija u odnosnu na one kalorije koje trošim. Jednog dana, na zahtev roditelja koji su uvideli da moji menstrualni ciklusi uvek kasne i veoma su bolni otišla sam na pregled kod endokrilogoa i ginekologa. Način na koji su mi saopštili da imam policistične jajnike koji će me pratiti ceo život, da mi insulin skače i da sam za sve kriva JA, nikada neću zaboraviti.
Mladoj osobi nikada tako nešto ne treba reći, jer će je svaka nova bubuljica zaboleti više od prethodne, jer će svaki slatkiš boleti i buditi nesigurnost i krivicu, a što je najvažnije, najlepše i najbezbrižnije godine života biće pretvorene u agoniju bez kraja.
Policistične jajnike ne možete promeniti, niti ste ih vi birale. Ono što jedino možete da uradite jeste da smirite simptome istih. Isto je i sa insulinskom rezistencijom i svim onim ’’bolestima’’ za koje smo same krive, jer eto bile smo nevaljale i manje poslušne od dečaka pa smo kažnjene ožiljcima na licu i nesigurnosčću zbog većeg stomaka.
Ceo svoj život pokušavala sam da promenim svoj izgled. Masne naslage na stomaku su mi smetale čak i ukoliko se radilo o minimalnom stomačiću koji niko osim mene nije primećivao. Išla sam iz dijete u dijetu, a svaka nova bila je rigoroznija od prethodne. Jo jo efekat postao je moj najbolji prijatelj. Bila sam u stanju da izgubim 15 kila u januaru, a već početkom marta dolazila sam na plus 20kg. Pritisci I neprihvatanje okoline dodatno mi je otežavalo. Nikada se nisam osećala prijatno u kupaćem kostimu. Maljavost uslovljena policističnim jajnicima sa godinama je bila sve veća, te su mi letnji dani postali najveći neprijatelji. Šta ako nešto ne uspem da skinem svakodnevnim izbrijavanjem celog tela? Šta ako neko pored viška kiloograma primeti I kaže drugima da sam I dlakava? Teške reči, a još teže za devojku koja odrasta. Niko mi nikada nije pomogao, niko me nije posavetovao dok sama to nisam uradila.
Prihvatila sam sebe.
Prihvatila sam sve svoje nepravilnosti i probleme i odlučila da se suočim sa njima, pre svega da bih bila zdrava. Dijete sam zamenila izbalansiranom zdravom ishranom, punom zeleniša, voća i povrća. Naučila sam da kuvam, te sam svoje omiljene slatkiše počela da pravim na zdraviji, a kasnije ću shvatiti, i ukusniji način. Redovni treninzi bez ikakve potrebe za preterivanjem pomogli su mi da moje telo nastavi da radi i bori se da bude što zdravije nego ikad.
10 Godina nakon prvog saopštavanja da ću se ceo život boristi sa policističnim jajnicima i insulinskom rezistencijom borim se i dalje, ali na potpuno drugačiji i zdraviji način.